I think I'm missing somebody.
I find myself struggling with words this morning, trying to express how I feel. I'm missing someone a lot. I'm missing the little things that mean so much to me. Glancing over to see if she is online so we can talk or chat. Hearing her voice, hearing her laugh. Checking to see if she has had time to write. Looking to see if she's posted anything that I can read online.
I would like to know if I will hear her voice again. I'm trying to be strong. She has her own life to live, her own family to be with, just as I have my own. But I am missing her terribly... I just hope she is enjoying the time with her family and everyone else.
I see her when I close my eyes, but it's not enough. I hear her voice in the back of my head, but it isn't the same... And I know that she'd tell me I'm obsessed because of all of this. And I'd admit that I am. I couldn't, wouldn't deny it...
But at least I feel and see her when I close my eyes and dream. I know my love for her is so strong and true-- she completes me. Even if we can't talk, I know she's there.
The only thing is it hurts knowing that we were so close, and I had so much to say and tell her.
But now... all I can do is watch her walk away from me.
But now... all I can do is watch her walk away from me.
I will be okay though. I just need to realize that it's time for me to walk away too. I'm walking away from the troubles-- to find a better day. I'm sorry to say, but... I'm walking away.
